Reflection: “The Awe and Wonder of Nature”©

The Rev. Sarah Lammert, USR, March 11, 2007

 

            There I was, up to my arms in rich, black soil.  Along with five other work study students, I was “mucking for potatoes” at the Green Gulch Zen Center garden.  This was no ordinary garden, and these were no ordinary potatoes.  The garden was entirely organic – a supply garden for the famous “Greens” restaurant in San Francisco.  And the potatoes weren’t Idaho baking spuds or even ordinary new potatoes – instead they were an heirloom variety, pink in color, firm and petite.  Finding them was like discovering an Easter egg hidden for the delight of children. 

            As we worked together in silence – we were silent intentionally, as a part of a Buddhist retreat experience – with the pulse of the Pacific Ocean hitting Muir Beach beyond us to lend the day a rhythm, I felt a sort of wholeness that in my experience is rare in life.  Some of you have shared similar experiences with me, when in the presence of natural beauty, one’s heart becomes filled with awe and wonder, and the sense that there is a self melts away, or at least a self that is separate from everything else outside.  There, in the garden, I felt whole, complete, at peace, content, with the sun on my back, and the quiet companionship of my fellow gardeners, and my hands calmly searching through the soft loamy earth.

            A week later, back at home, I received a postcard from a fellow guest student who had stayed for the extended retreat option: “I’m sorry you had to leave on Tuesday.  The day after you left, the rest of us reached enlightenment right there in the garden.” 

            Seven years later, I found myself imagining the serenity of the Green Gulch garden as I stood contemplating a rather different scene – an abandoned urban lot in downtown Ogden, Utah.  It was a deep but narrow piece of land – too narrow to build on.  It had been donated to the Women’s Center where our congregation rented on Sundays.  Our congregation had been looking for a place to start a community garden, and the Director of the Center had decided to offer the land to us.  As we carefully picked our way through prickly weeds, rocks and broken glass, I noticed a blue paint chip lying on the ground ---the chips were everywhere, a ghost of the house that had once stood on this spot.  I could squint my eyes and envision a garden there, but it was going to take something to get there. 

            I had no idea how much effort was ahead of us.  It turned out that this location had at one time been a river bed, so it was filled with rocks.  The paint chips contained lead.   There was no water access on the lot, and it would require tearing up the asphalt in the street to lay piping in from the water main.  Even though we got a grant to cover most of the expenses, fencing would be very expensive, and we weren’t sure how we would pay for that.  With the help of some very determined congregational members – one of whom was a farmer’s daughter who had grown up in Southern Utah and was used to adverse soil conditions, and another who had just finished a master gardening program -- we were able to haul away the entire top two feet of suspect soil, remove the river rocks by hand, build in composting bins, put up the fences (with a donation from a generous congregant), build back up the soil, bring in water piping, and build a drip irrigation system.

            If you saw the garden now, you would not be able to imagine the abandoned lot that it once was.  Neighbors reserve beds in the back, while the front of the garden is for all to share.  There is a tepee structure that supports a flowering bean plant, creating a living reading and shade room for children in the summertime.  It is a place of brightness and beauty on an otherwise dreary and downtrodden street – a place for people to connect, for children to experience the wonder and beauty of a green oasis, and for families to supplement their food budgets with healthy, abundant homegrown produce.

            Rachel Bagby, a writer and singer, wrote up a wonderful interview with her mother, a well known urban community gardener in Philadelphia, who was by this time well into her eighties, and still actively gardening.[1]   In the piece, she asks her mother about her work with children.  Her mother talks about how much she loves to show children the grass from the weeds and the plants, explaining how they grow, and how everything has a cycle.

How do you get the children in here?” asks Rachel.

Mother: “Open the gate and say ‘Come on children...’…The mothers say ‘Yeh, take the children so they can sit down and look at television…’” 

Daughter: “And what kind of hope do you have?”

Mother: “You do that with children, not all of them will end up in jail.  Some of them will come out all right.”

Daughter: “Why do you think that if you show them the living things that will help them straighten up?”

Mother: “It helps to appreciate the beauty of the Earth, and of nature; we call it mother nature.”

Daughter: “Do you think it helps them appreciate the beauty of each other and their abilities?”

Mother: “This is the thing. If you can appreciate the Earth, you can appreciate the beauty of yourself.  If this has beauty, I too have beauty.  And if I learn to take care of that I’ll also take care of myself and help take care of others.  See, taking care of yourself and appreciating yourself is the first step. 

            It may not seem like much, in the world today, to teach children how to garden.  What difference will it make to start a compost project at your home, or plant a few seeds in a garden, given the enormity of the environmental ills we face?  Our earth is warming up, causing massive changes in weather patterns, and in animal and plant life.  Just this week in the paper, there was a story predicting that parts of the East Side of Manhattan and almost half of Brooklyn might be under water within the next thirty years.  My middle school-aged daughter came home recently demanding to know what we were going to do when petroleum reserves run out in forty years, given that everything from automobiles to our synthetic clothing rely on this energy source.

            The problems facing our world are enormous, and they require almost more action than we know how to, or are willing to undertake.  We are losing 7000 acres a day in the United States of wild and agricultural land to development.  Here in New Jersey, our air quality 1600 times dirtier than recommended under federal safety guidelines.  From the time we finish our morning coffee each day to the start of lunch, more than 10,000 acres of rainforest have been cut down.  It boggles the mind.  It paralyzes even the hardiest most compassionate soul. 

This is not child’s play, I’m talking about – what is at stake is the very survival of life on Earth.

            Interestingly though, in a study quoted by the Trust for Public Land, the most dedicated and activist environmentalists attribute their commitment to a combination of two sources: many hours spent outdoors in a keenly remembered wild or semi-wild place in childhood or adolescence; and an adult who taught them respect for nature.[2]  It turns out that what we respond to as humans, is not a series of dire statistics about the impending death of our world as we know it, but a direct experience of the wonder and awe of nature, which connects us to the web of life, and inspires us to act to defend life in its infinite variety.  If as children we can be taught firsthand to love the earth, we will grow up to see ourselves not as separate from the natural world, but as a part of it.  And as adults, we can recapture that spirit of exploration of childhood, and we too can experience that sense of wonder and awe, and at-one-ness with the land.

            It doesn’t require a trip to the Himalayas or the Grand Canyon to re-spark that connection to our earth (although certainly these among the true cathedrals of our world).  All it takes is putting our hand into the rich black earth and pulling up a pink potato.  Or, stopping for a moment to admire a hawk overhead, or to notice the way a bare winter tree branch creates a pattern against the sky.  Discovering something new about what makes things grow is a great way to spark excitement and attunement to the natural world.  I really encourage everyone to participate in the composting action set up during the coffee hour today.  You can learn about carbon/nitrogen ratios, compost activators, and how to turn food like old coffee grounds and vegetable peels into soil for your own gardens.  It is so cool, and it doesn’t even have to be smelly or messy or gross.  And it is something you can feel proud about – doing your part to preserve and sustain our environmental future. 

            What is a true mistake is to inundate children – particularly young children -- with the whole dire picture of where our world is going.  Writer David Sobel worries that we are creating what he calls “ecophobia” among our children through well-intentioned curricula for elementary school aged kids that bring home the devastation of Chernobyl, tell the story of the murder of rainforest activist Chico Mendez, and include videos that explain how our insatiable hunger for fast food hamburgers and oil has led to the displacement of indigenous forest people, and caused clear cutting in the Amazon. 

            In teaching children such things, the hope is that they will change their own behaviors and grow up to be organic Vegan, hybrid-driving, rammed earth living members of the Green Party, in time for our Earth to be saved from the disastrous course that we ourselves have set it on.  “My fear,” writes Sobel “is that just the opposite is occurring.  In our zest for making them aware of and responsible for the world’s problems, we cut our children off from their roots – in effect, we are logging our own children.”

            It may well be that by middle or high school, our youth are ready to absorb and respond to the world’s grave environmental woes.  My daughter Abby, who at nearly 12 years old considers herself an environmentalist, just wrote a well-reasoned paper against animal testing, for instance.  She is at the age of reason, perhaps just barely able to understand issues like weighing the value of human life against that of animals, and able to absorb some of the uglier statistics in her research, including the fact that millions of animals die in laboratories every year.  But for younger children, such images might just have a nightmarish effect rather than motivating them to work for change. 

Instead, what is important is that children learn to bond with the world beyond our human habitats, learn to love the outdoors and feel comfortable with their hands in the dirt.  As John Burroughs put it so beautifully, “Knowledge without love will not stick.  But if love comes first, knowledge is sure to follow.”

            It was the originator of the term “land ethic,” Aldo Leopold, who noted in his Sand County Almanac in 1949 that the way to change the heart and behavior of people towards the land is to transform Homo sapiens from “conqueror of the land-community to plain member and citizen of it.”  And this kind of change happens from the inside out, rather than the outside in.  It is wonderful to send a check to the Sierra Club or to the World Wildlife Fund.  It is important to send letters supporting environmental legislation, including the Kyoto Accord.  It is great to watch films like Al Gore’s Oscar winning “An Inconvenient Truth.”  But we as adults are not all that different from young children, in that we also need awe and wonder and a love for nature to truly to transform us into citizens of the land.  We need concrete daily acts to offer hope that change is possible.  It can be as simple as feeding that bucket of compost, or growing a jar of bean sprouts in your window.  You could get a little more ambitious and use your new soil to plant a butterfly garden in your yard.  Better yet, aerospace your yard with native plants.  Bring your toxic garbage to the Bergen County hazardous waste collection days.  Find out what your water shed is.  Get out and walk through the Celery Farm or in the woods of Sterling Forest.  Volunteer in the USR garden.  Find an empty lot and start dreaming of a community garden filled with children learning to see beauty in themselves by learning about beauty in plant cycles.  Dare to hope.  Dare to see what is worth saving -- this Earth that is really an extension of our own selves.

            Any gardener will tell you that preparing the soil for planting is the most important and difficult part of growing flowers, fruits and vegetables.  When the Green Gulch gardeners first broke ground, they didn’t just uncover that soft, rich black soil, velvety to the touch, and strewn with bejeweled pink potatoes, twining squash vines, and tomatoes in greens, yellows and reds deliciously waiting to be mixed with the tender salad greens for our lunch.  Certainly the “Your Community Garden” of Ogden, Utah, didn’t grow without groups of people working together, hauling rocks in wheelbarrows, and consistently adding leaves and composting elements to build up a weary bed of ground.  The end result, however, is joyous, beautiful, and deeply satisfying. 

            So, we too, might start a new environmental life one carrot peel at a time, by literally building up soil, and perhaps opening our selves to the natural world in a new and embodied way.  If composting just isn’t your thing, check out the display on ordering re-usable grocery bags.  My family of 4 typically could save 1000 plastic bags from being thrown away each year simply by bringing reusable bags to the store, so this simple act multiplied by our entire congregation quickly would save 100,000 or more plastic bags per year!

            Transformation begins in the every day, and grows from there, like the concentric circles of a pebble thrown into a pond.  If we begin in love, we will walk in beauty, as will our children, and unto the seventh generation.  So be it.

 

 



[1] Bagby, Rachel, “Daughter of Growing Things,” in Reweaving the World: The Emergence of Ecofeminism, edited by Irene Diamond and Gloria Femen Orenstein, SF, Sierra Club Books.

[2] Louise Chawla, as quoted in Sobel, David “Ecophobia” Winter 1995.